“Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.” Anonymous
Psalm 90:4 NKJV
4 For a thousand years in Your sight Are like yesterday when it is past, And like a watch in the night.
Like a watch in the night… I have been perplexed these few nights about some serious issues the not so serious ones I cast aside. I was thinking that my faith and hope is not in a mortal man. So I started to touch my body. I could feel my head hurting. I started to say to myself “Lafieta He who keeps you does not slumber, He does not sleep” He never gets weary…He will not change His mind concerning you.
So look on “a thousand years in Your sight”… hope. Just hope…Just believe
Take the time today to write out whatever it is, this long standing problem. This situation that seems like it’s never ending. Write it out and date it. Each day you are reminded of it , take out the paper or book you have written it on and count the days. (Don’t knock it until you try it..)
When this thing comes to perplex your thoughts,look for something beautiful in the day. I have learnt that my if I change my outlook, I can change my approach. If I change myapproach my days are happier. Friends that will take a conscious effort on our part. It will be challenging but not impossible.
Find victory in the changes you make. Count the days your problems cannot outlast the Master.
“Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.” Aristotle
When you find something beautiful drop me a line. Tell me about it.
I did that exercise. It was a moment for me, I was outside with toddler who stopped playing to come into my lap. I hugged him tightly and then there was this gush of wind that lasted more than a minute. Then I closed my eyes and started to smile thankful for wind and peace.I opened my eyes and my son had the biggest smile on his face. 😊that was my beautiful moment
“Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until It is faced” James Baldwin
Thank you to my supermom. I love you endlessly
She has managed to drag herself to safety. She now lays on the living room floor. As she catches her breath, she mumbles “the children are safe, that’s all that matters”. She runs her hands across her broken bleeding body. She doesn’t know for sure how many stabs she has received she lost count as the attack prolonged. If I can make it through the night…. If I can push through until dawn.
As she lays alone, she thinks that though the blade was long enough, the knife didn’t go into an organ, it didn’t cut an artery for any one stab to be detrimental. He wanted her to die a slow agonizing death.
So he inflicted multiple stabs to her entire body …together detrimental to the warrior. She has a smirk on her face no CSI to investigate this crime.
Agony from the pain, she says I will not die here. I will thrive here, I will survive here. I shall be like a tree planted by the rivers, I shall not be moved.
Devil you gave it your best shot, countless stabs to the mind and body. You touched my body but you couldn’t touch my soul. She cries “ ABBA Father take this cup from me” she remembers the sleeping children she says “Not my Will thy Will be done”
Eyes closed, teeth clenched PUSH
You have come this far. Healed scars from wounds that run deep. Far deeper than the blade of the knife that inflicted the stabs.
What the hell is this curse words…curse words ranting raving of a mad man
She opens her eyes, her grandfather has started his usual 2am cursing. She’s in Andrea’s house and there is no room at the inn. The walls of Andrea’s house have expanded to hold them. Have you ever seen concrete stretch or bend?
Andrea made that happen.
The warrior checks to make sure the baby on the bed is still sleeping. She rises to take her position on her watch tower, on her knees. She knows she’s not dead at least that’s what the Lord said “your not dead, do My work”
She intercedes, she cries for the nation, she binds princess with fetters of iron. She makes decrees to save women and children. She binds the broken hearts and she sets captives free.
Regardless of her current situation she has been called to watch over the city.
Her time is up…
the cursing continues
“Who are you praying to?….curse words.. more ranting, more raving”
Andrea’s house awakens for school, for work.
The living room has become a bedroom. Grandma’s room has to be shared. Three sets of household items now fit within the walls.
I can only imagine her saying “they are my children”
I can imagine her mind goes back to when they were younger and she had to send two girls to high-school, a mortgage and no job.
I can imagine her thinking I have gotten them past the worst. They will not suffer any more.
Then they return like Ruth and Naomi…
Ruth 1: 20-21 KJV
“And she said unto them, Call me not Naomi, call me Mara:for the Almighty hath dealt very bitterly with me. I went out full, and the Lord hath brought me home again empty:…..”
She raised them strong, she ensured she taught them self resilience, get a solid education no one can take that from you. She taught them how to fight, to push never giving up , never stopping.
What Andrea didn’t or couldn’t do God did for her girls.
So she maneuvers through her house, not looking like what it should, but looking like what it has to, so she can hold her girls together.
It’s already a long read I know… but let’s talk about some aspects of your life, my life.. let’s reason.
-Have you been feeling or felt like you are so wounded you can’t get up? You can’t pray, praise? Even the basic things are hard to do?
– Have you left a place, a position and you were so full of hope, great expectations? Then to return to that place , you said you would never go back to? Broken, battered filled with scars and shame?
– Have you ever questioned the hand of God in your life? “Why me God, haven’t I done so and so?” “What did I do to deserve this?”
– Have you read the book of Job as a way to appease your own discomfort, looking for a strategy to make it to the end?
– Have you come to the realization that where you are(this place , that position) that you swore you would never return to. Is outside the will of God, for your life and you need to break the generational curses that holds you hostage to repetition and failure?
Come here my daughter I imagine Naomi says to Ruth.. after weeks or months of realizing that Boaz has favored her by allowing her to glean as much as she has.
I want you to read through this first and then follow the Instructions. Indulge me if you will
-Sit on the floor ensure you can feel the floor beneath you.
-Take three deep breaths
-Close your eyes
-As you close your eyes run your hands along your body. Every where you know there has been a wound your head(mind), your heart, your body if you have been sick with something (the place the cancer was, the damaged pancreas from diabetes) touch your body.
-After touching your body
-Take three more deep breaths. Now let the warmth or coldness of the floor sink in.
How many times did you think the earth was going to open and take you in? How many times did you think you wouldn’t have survived the night much less the month? How many bad situations have you faced and thought it was the last?
Let that sink in… as you sit on that floor touch It’s surface. Thank you Jesus, Thank you Father (what do you call God)
I am alive, I am not dead.
Now I imagine Ruth may have had her head in Naomi’s lap as the old woman was about to give her the best advice of her life. She touches her face perhaps.. gently a mother’s touch of comfort.
“Ruth as Boaz sleeps uncover his feet and lay at them”
I say this to you
When the house sleeps dig deep and muster as much strength as you possibly can and push In prayer.
Lay at the feet of the master and do not leave.
When you rise if He does not acknowledge you. Do not feel shame or discouraged go agin, night after night. If He says “should I give the children’s bread to the dogs?” With your face to the ground say yes master even the dogs deserve crumbs.
If you feel you didn’t ask for this, God sent It and now this terrible thing has happened. Have the mind and determination of the Shunamite press and remind Him I was well without this and You gave It to me.
If the room is crowded and you think there is no way He will hear me. Stay on that floor and push until He feels virtue leave His body.
Blinded , sick in body cry out, disturb the atmosphere, cause Him to have no choice but to look at you.
Go like the widow who went to the unjust judge day after day.
Seek your justice, your just reward, your peace, your joy , your happiness, your good health, your fortune.
Now kneel my daughter, go to the one who He alone can change your situation, with a cry, a shout, a praise whatever you have.
I want you to take my hand (pretend to hold my hand) and rise come strongly to your feet. Put both hands above your head. Take a deep breath, smile a really big smile. Depends on the time of day I want you to look to something either the sun setting or the moon in the night sky. Remember whichever it is God did that. He has you no matter the tide, you will never be forsaken.
Now go PUSH
Look for ebooks in each topic to further help you push. There is already a network of women who has survived terrible ordeals. If you read this and need help in anyway. Send a message, there is no need to suffer alone or die from spiritual wounds God has given remedies for.
Take the hand my sister
Rise from the ashes of brokenness
Mount up on Eagles wings
“ When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves” Viktor Frankl
No matter how many times I flip Melissa and Doug over I can set it back on its four wheels. It has only a few scratches despite the few years the boys have had it.
I sat just turning the wooden van in my hands, left, right over and over. Melissa and Doug has no loss of life, no loss of love. You put it back and it continues to drive.
It’s funny how the simplest things trigger certain emotions. My toddler just called his cousin’s name and we hadn’t been talking about him and I had the truck in my hand.
I thought about Alrick and I said if only life had been so simple. If only we could pick things up like these toys and they continue to carry out their functions.
Sudden death takes us by surprise not God.
Sudden death is meant to throw us off guard.
Sudden death is meant to mess up our equilibrium.
As I am talking about a physical death. It may not be a human being that dies in your case. But suddenly you lost that job, that friend and everything has started to go wrong.
You start to feel something in your stomach that you can’t really explain. It’s weakness, it’s uncertainty, fear, anger a mix of emotions. You start going for days without food or drink. You start to go through the unimaginable, Job says “the thing I have feared the most has come upon me”
How do I face my fears? How do I look at my son? How do I look at my children? How do I face this world with this new reality?
I feel the wind against my skin, the heat from the sun bakes my cheeks. I look to the heavens, deep down I know I will make it.
Years have passed and sometimes when my sister and I talk about anything difficult we are facing. If I say “I don’t think I could manage without this..” she hastily says don’t say that. She says remember what happened.
Sudden death changes how you speak. It has to. It has brought a new reality into your midst. Left you to explain something you may never be able to comprehend to another person.
Everything happens for a reason. Is not a statement you embrace. Why did the everything have to happen to me.
You will help someone else through this.
I didn’t ask to be a teacher. I didn’t want to be this example.
Job stripped himself and put ashes on his face. He sank to a place I’m sure Nemoi and Marsha knows all to well. Even though you empathize, that’s all you can do and secretly you wish; this thing that came upon them would never happen to you.
Melissa and Doug wooden toys are for children. It will be many years before he will be able to understand what happened to daddy. Nemoi will tell him daddy was a good man. (Picture of Alrick Prosperity Haughton who died shortly after this picture was taken with baby Haughton)
Marsha has already told her children of daddy they are much older. Sudden death affects more than mothers, parents or families of the deceased.It will affect self esteems and purposes. It will affect relationships , self worth and self love
All sorts of emotions are running through your mind. I didn’t Intend to make you sad or angry. Even writing this has brought back to my mind every emotion I felt 2016. However these emotions causes me to remember to push in prayer. I am reminded that the reality of this sudden death Is not what I want for my nephew In the future so I push. I look at that face , that smile and I say;
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When I have finished praying I say:
Grow well and prosper son of Alrick Prosperity Haughton
Grow well and prosper children of Cleve Solomon
To the children left behind who lost a parent or parents to the enemy of sudden death
“ It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see light” Aristotle
It was the second day of the marriage. She was smiling from ear to ear. The wait was over, the bridegroom had come! He looked like the man she had seen in her dreams. A Christian man… her forever, the future now looked better. She smiled as she watched him sleep, snores and all.His smile reached his brown blue eyes, they were both glowing…bliss
What was the beginning of your story? How would you write it?
Go ahead and do that..write something from your heart. A sentence or two, before the disappointment, the pain, the hurt. Remind yourself of that pure love before
The Torn Picture
(I thought this would be easy.)
Revelation 12:11 (NIV)
They triumphed over him
by the blood of the Lamb
and by the word of their testimony;…
December 2,2017 He moved out of the house taking every spoon, fork and cup. Leaving me with an eight day old baby, unpaid rent.. He pushed me , he said “everything is mine”. The same eyes had lost their sensitivity, their love. (Just like that he was gone…never to be seen by us again.) The baby was sick, he needed me. Premature at birth, a bleeding placenta, almost lost my life. I had to fight. I couldn’t deal with that reality right there and then.
the dismissing or refusing of a proposal, idea, etc.
After you have been dismissed or refused without your permission by someone who you so dearly loved. You are left feeling debilitating; with scores of negative thoughts of self and of the individual. Emotions are harder to deal with as you question your self worth. You begin to question if you are even able to carry out the basic ‘ Agape love’. If you are anything like me you begin to apply defense mechanisms to cope. Depending on the day it can be either:projection , rationalization or repression.
Depending on your level of Christian maturity your questions to God may vary.
Thou you are told in
1Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind and said:
2“Who is this who obscures My counsel
by words without knowledge?
3Now brace yourself like a man;
I will question you, and you shall inform Me!
4Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?
No matter what we face there is a certain stance to take.God has not changed because suddenly this terrible thing has happened or is happening to you.
As often as you have heard it. My dear sisters it’s true. This is time, allow the experience to cause you to have a closer relationship with God.
This is what helped me.
-I started a journal. I wrote down the scriptures the Holy Spirit would give me. I wrote down the negative emotion I would feel later that same day. I would compare them as Truth and Lie. I had to make up my mind which to believe.
– Start each day with worship. Even when I couldn’t open my mouth someone on YouTube did. My days started at 2am.
– Read the Word (regardless of how you feel).
– I started to listen to Mr Positive… you know him Joel Osteen. I would talk back to him many days and he would definitely answer me many days. I had to listen to at least two sermons each day.
– I kept my assignment as an Intercessor. This is most important. Will you allow your current situation to hinder you from carrying out your duties.
God has given us strategy to overcome the challenges that we face. This life filled with road blocks and sabotage. Even those things we are meant to overcome.
“ Rejection is a hard emotion to deal with and an even harder message to hear…we are good enough, this was just not the right time or the right opportunity” Dr Nikki Martinez
I mentioned in a previous blog that the things the enemy has sent to: rob you, destroy you, kill you. Come in different stages each attempting to ultimately kill you.
Face this thing, look at this Goliath called rejection. That has made you sick, bitter, filled with rage hate for self and others. That has filled you with insecurities and doubt. Replace his (that ) voice, get ready with what is in your hand to kill this giant. Make the sling ready… steady your hand. Begin to bring back to memory the many things you faced that God delivered you from. Now use the weapon in hand.You (that’s right YOU). It was always you.
God didn’t do this terrible thing to you. He didn’t allow this person to abuse you, leave you… He will show you, that despite this He can deliver you.
Psalm 94:14 NIV
For the LORD will not reject his people; he will never forsake his inheritance.
Now Open YOUR mouth and kill this Giant !!
– God has not given me a spirit of fear but of love power and a sound mind.
– You weapon formed against my peace , my mind, my happiness. You shall not prosper !
– You son of the giant ,rejection
– fall down and die now!In the Name of Jesus .
– Every unfruitful tree in my life from the seeds of rejection; hate, bitterness, sickness, malice. Dry up and die now! In Jesus Name
– I will soar on wings like eagles; I will run and not grow weary. I will walk and not faint.
– Greater is He , that is in me. Than he that is in this world.
– I come in the volume of the book that is written of me.
– I shall live and not die.
– (Add to this list)
Your rejection may not have come from a husband or boyfriend. It could have come through a parent, a teacher or boss. It was sent at a strategic time in your life to destroy you. Or to be the first seed into that destruction depending on the stage of your life when you encountered it.
Close your eyes and remember the whole picture, remember the dreams, remember how you felt, remember your hopes. Remember who You were at the beginning. Go ahead and close your eyes, take a minute or two.
Now let this sink in
Not because the picture is torn, it means that God will not allow your purpose to be fulfilled.
Not because the picture is torn, it does not mean the happiness and peace you deserve will not find you.
Not because the picture is torn, it does not mean you will not walk in the fullness of.. be granted restitution for or brought higher .
Not because the picture is torn, it means I will never_______________ (you finish)
It has taken me a few years, many tears and determination to get better. To understand that I wasn’t rejected by God and that He loves me regardless of what the enemy wanted to tell me. God didn’t hate me, because it wasn’t God who rejected me.
“The secret of health, for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, nor worry about the future but to live the present moment wisely and earnestly.” S. Gautama
My name is Lafieta Chisholm, I’m a 36 year old divorced mother of two. A beautiful ten year old girl and a very active two year old boy. At some point on this journey I will share my testimony. That is the things that happened in my life that has brought me to this place, this public domain.
I believe each of us should fulfil our creative purpose. That no matter where we are, our input is important.
What we Face
John 10:10 “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I have come that they may have life and have it to the full”
I have come to learn, that the situations we face everyday. That are meant to rob us, kill us or destroy us. If we apply God given strategy, while going through these trials we will not only survive but thrive! Both spiritually and naturally.
On this journey I will share some strategic moves and prayers.
If we open our minds to accept that it’s not a quick fix. Not just seeking a Prophet or having Apostle lay hands on you.
I want us, over the next few months To examine the various issues we face and apply strategies as simple as: listening to music or declaring a sentence over your life.
1st Corinthians 10:13 “And God is faithful, he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so you can endure it”
A few days into the new year and I still want to talk about last year.
I want you to get a piece of paper or use your smart phone and make a list. Of the five major things that affected you last year.
The things that caused you to only float through your year and not really thrive either spiritually or naturally.
Go ahead and take a minute to write your list…
Let me ask you this
If you had an outline of things to try or do would any of those things be easier to go through? To grow through?
If you had a support group that worked according to the strategy of survival; instead of confusion , doubt and fear.
Making reference to John 10:10
The truth in having life to the full after robbery, death and destruction will require your obedience and consistency.
Destroy- end of the existence of (something) by damaging or attacking it.
Ruin-someone emotionally or spiritually
Now what on your list was meant to do that to you?
“Last week” is intended to highlight the issues we faced in 2019 and tap into the survival skills that are freely given to us.
If you truly listen to the voice of God no matter where you are on your spiritual journey.
You Will Make It!
Say that “I Will Make It!
A new year has begun ,new methods, new ways of thinking have to be applied for us to truly Live Full Lives.
So it wasn’t about the money, the children, your husband, your boss or the business. It wasn’t even the devils we faced (even though they played their part) it was our application, techniques, discipline and attitudes. That kept us out of living Full Lives.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”